Inspirtion is Art, Freedom, Love, and Life

Sitting here on Saturday after  Thanksgiving, and the Black Friday madness, it not until tonight it dawned on me two things, The first is what I am truly thankful for which is none other than the greatest  substance an artist can have which is inspiration! Inspiration comes in so many forms and is different for every person but my inspirations are simple and a few new discovered. First is my dear and great friend Jonathan just because of his personality and his presence and spirit that gave genuine meaning to my work, second is none other than Lady Gaga who’s message has inspired and lit the way for the creation of a more diverse and accepting world through her music, and hysterics, and recently a few individuals that inspired me in whom I found on YouTube and just have great advice, humor, and provide utmost support and an understanding outlook on the world: Davey Wavey and ILIKEJAOQUIN!

Thanks! And here is where inspiration has taken me, it’s called VII and it is the latest addition to my collection “TIME: Forever and Always” enjoy!

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No Quiero Ser Yo

The happy trend had to end somewhere, but it doesn’t come to a screeching halt. Inspired by “Born This Way” by the fabulous Lady Gaga,  No Quiero Ser Yo refers in an inverse manner that I am who I am, (and you are who you are,) and that sometimes challenges are had that make  you really not want to be who you are,so it is a message to say that don’t be afraid to be you. Lucky for you only-English-speakers that this one has my Original Spanish version and a modified English translation that I did.

SPANISH

Siento tonto que te he amado

Sabiendo que no podrías amarme lo mismo

Esta caída ay, ésta me dejó una obra

Y un corazón cansado y que es roto

Te aprecié por quien eras

Y me maldije por quien yo no era

Hay algo dentro de mí que me  jala a ti

Este es un corazón, y ahora es roto

Nada puede arreglarlo, nadie puede ponerlo de nuevo

Es por Dios que sea así

Y por ti que I don’t want to be me

Para este momento mis lágrimas lloro

Para ti, siempre lloraré

Aunque puede odiarme, o juzgarme; aunque no me miras lo mismo

Tienes mi corazón, y has besado mi alma

Eres mi vida y mejor que oro

Ay este problema que he encontrado en este tiempo

Ay mi amor que he quedado dentro de ti

Mi corazón roto aún es mi corazón

Mi alma aún tiene  tu beso

Es por Dios que sea así

Es por ti que I don’t want to be me

English Version

I feel a fool to have loved you
Knowing that you could never love me the same
This fall O this fall has left me a work
And tired heart that is now broken
I had cherished you for who you are
And hath banished myself for who I wasn’t
There is something within me that draws me to you
That thing is a heart, and it is broken
Nothing can mend it, no one can fix it.

It is by God that I am so
It is because of you that no quiero ser yo
For this moment my tears do fall
For you I will forever cry
Though you may hate me; though you may judge me; though you don’t look at me the same
You have my heart and have kissed my soul
You are my life and greater than gold
O this trouble I have found in this time
O my lover I have found in you
My broken heart is still but my heart
My soul still bears your kiss
It is by God that I am so
It is because of you that no quiero ser yo

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Ese Chico

Ese Chico…where to start, this is just fluke I now realize it after about five months now in retrospect. But this poem is shallow and speaks simply of admiration and beauty. It is completely in Spanish as well.

Una bella risa

Una sonrisa seria

Ojos tan fuertes

Y un corazón dorado

Veo su cuerpo y me atrae más cerca

Sus palabras hablan claramente

Sus movimientos son amigables

Él grita y ríe

Él ama y pelea

Jamás  lo he visto que llore una lágrimas

Hay una alma dentro de él

Una alma dentro de ese chico mexicano

Todos los días su imagen es más fuerte

Más y más quiero ver su rostro

Y ser abrazado  en sus brazos

La abraza de ese chico mexicano

Es alto y mas fuerte que yo

Aun no se gloríe

Hay más que terror debajo de su piel moreno

Hay más que  misión en su mente

Hay amor que llena su alma

Amor en la alma de ese chico mexicano

Ay quiero oír su risa

Ay sueño con besar  sus labios solemnes

Ay quiero amar ese chico mexicano

 

The Tears I’ll Never Cry

I’m going to open and say this one is not about him. This is actually one of my all time favorites( but not my absolute favorite) and I wrote this for my friend Danielle and it’s just to explain that love does exist, that love is possible, that love is wonderful, but more importantly, love isn’t always easy and isn’t a game or toy to play around with.

You say that you love me

You say that you care

And don’t want me to cry

Or is it another lie

I don’t know of the truth

I haven’t the slightest clue

And would I then know,

If I said “I love you”

I used to make you smile

With joy and harmony

And now how it’s in your eye

Deep fear, and lonely

But in my eyes I hold

The tears I hope to cry

Which are the ones that’ll never fall

And in time they will stay

Never dwind’ling away

Many words that have come

From your lips and of his

Reminds me just of why;

I have these tears I’ll never cry

If I do then let them fall

Will you hold me in your arms?

Like you have won a prize?

Or steal my heart away

And tear it in a rage?

For you push me away

For the tears I’ll never cry

And then will I let down

A silent no-end song

And from my eyes will sing—

The Tears I’ll Never Cry

Broken I shall not stand

And diminished I refuse to fall

Lies i know I’ll face

So flee do I with haste

I watch you from afar

With envy in your eye

While you watch me in his arms

With his heart around mine

From a distance I see your tears

The tears that are not real

And for them I withhold

The tears I’ll never cry

He tells me to move on

He tugs gent’ly at my heart

But some way I can’t accept

The doubt that’s of “Could’ve Been”

And so from there I flee

An angel in form, and kind

And to your heart I stop;

To knock at its open door

In the mid’le I stand

Looking at the both;

And I don’t know where to turn

Just maybe there is hope—

And maybe a response

And one day I will cry—

The Tears I Shall Never Cry

 

21 Random Facts About Me =]

I honestly can  attest  to being a ”not-so-interesting-person” so to speak but eh, what the hey, why not do a little get to know me it sounds like an alright idea so here are a few things right off the top of my head.

1. When I get a house, I want it to be like’60s style like off of  Call of Duty Nuketown!

2. I procrastinate like there is no tomorrow –get the pun in that.

3. I hate the color yellow, I don’t know why though.

4. I’m only 5’4″

5. I haven’t studied for a test since 6th grade.

6. I’ve never failed a class.

7. I refuse to write in blue ink o read anything written in blue ink. I hate BLUE INK!

8. My lucky number is 8!

9. If I’m talking to someone who speaks Spanish, I will randomly switch languages while speaking.

10. I think Pitbull has the sexiest voice ever!

11. I use brackets and the equals sign to make smileys because I’m too lazy to press shift =].

12. If you haven’t picked up on it yes Iview sexuality in an interesting way (but click on the link or else you’ll get the wrong idea)

13. I love to write poetry.[which I might post later I don’t know yet]

14. I absolutely abhor reading.

15. Since 9th grade I’ve had this really fun yet seemingly awkward crush –haha oh lord XP

16. JROTC is practically my day job and  I love it!

17.It’s safe to say I talk to  Danielle Ybarra EVERY day.

18. I don’t have dreams, I have nightmares.

19. Any time I do alphabetical order I have to say the whole alphabet song.

20. Penguins, ducks, and turtles amuse me =]

21. My favorite movie in the whole-wide-world is 27 Dresses!!!!!

Um….that about sums it up I know I’m boring right? oh well that’s me!